Is It To Hard To Ask? #DepressionChats

Today is the last day of 2014 and once again, I can't sleep.. Maybe because I have too much on my mind. Thinking about how things have gone over the past year and how lonely my life is. That is probably mostly my doing and now I hate it. I am so wrapped up in my little cocoon of solitude and comfort because that is all I know. I have come across people that make me happy and those that have brought me down to a level that was hard to travel back to the happy place. I have gone through so many family tragedies and issue at home that the life I want is hindered. Playing a mom since you were so young is never fun and for those who understand, you know what I mean. It is hard for me to have relationships with people since I have such a wall built that is so strong so the true me wont shine through.

What I Got For Christmas 2014!!!

Allo friends! Today I am going to tell you what I got for Christmas from co-workers to family! Some of the gifts I have been using since I love using it now! One is from a NP that I work with and what I picked smelled AMAZING! If you want to find out what I got then please keep reading!

Merry Christmas!!!

Allo everyone! I just wanted to say Merry Christmas to all of my readers! I hope that you have a great holiday with your families and eat a lot. Spending time with everyone during the holidays makes me feel loved and happy. I will be home with my parents and little brother in our little apartment and the cat.
I hope everyone gets many items they "wished" for and talk to y'all soon!!!

  Shannon :)  

Holiday Gift 2014

Allo everyone...

Every year I make a gift for my friends every year. Last year I made gift bags designed for each person. Nail polish kits with their zodiac sign; Favourite candies; And other things to make it personalized to the person I gave it too.. This year I decided to go in with the mason jar theme and that tied in my Southern heritage; also tying in winter, hehe...

This years idea came about since I had most of the items planned out and just needs a few more things to add. Also. the mason jars were planned since you can use them for so many things! From drinks to storage to canning you can do wonders with them. This was also a low budget gift that you can personalize them anyway!

What I Have Been Going Through

Heyy y'all... I know that it is around Christmas time- for those who celebrate or for those that celebrate Chanukah or Kwanzaa... For me: the holidays bring up some deep issues and memories that I wish I can leave in my past..

Six years ago this year I lost a great woman and the third grandparent of mine to pass: Grandma Bason or Grandma B... I spent my holiday break in a funeral home and a mausoleum saying goodbye to a woman that I loved so much. But, I know that she isn't suffering anymore and she is playing her favourite slot machines as much as she wants. With the three most recent deaths of my family across the board, this holiday season will not be the best and a struggle and a major adjustment for everyone in the family.

Lately I have been depressed and lonely. I don't have many friends and I just sit in my room. With having no one to hang out with, it feels like no one likes me for the me and that truly makes me sad. I have learned that people use the weak link to rise above and big shocker here: I am the weak link :(
 Learning how to deal with everything is a bumpy road and my recovery will be long. I don't give a flying f*!k about everyone else, it is all about me and that is IT!!! I am in therapy right now to just vent and find ways to deal with everything.

With the depression, all I want to do is get cozy in bed, drink tea, and watch either Netflix or TV. On top of that, I like going out but only if it is fun or something in that realm. My definition of fun differs from my friends and that I think is what pisses them off.. During the week, I don't really like to go out unless it is relaxing. My friends work days and I work nights after a long day of cleaning and laundry. Some nights I just want to be alone and some I just want to have company, Some say being single is the greatest thing and some say having a partner is worth it; I have never been on a proper date and been single my whole life. Some days I think that having a boyfriend would help so I can just stop thinking about everything but again being single allows me to work at my goals and stay calm.

So, that is pretty much what is going on with me lately and again I am sorry for not posting anything. This lonely lovely lady is working hard everyday to try and stay happy. Hope everyone understands and talk to y'all very soon!

 Shannon

#Holidaze

Allo everyone! I know that now it is December and everyone is getting ready for the holidays. I have been getting ready for the holidays and birthdays of my friends. I know that I have been absent and I will have a post about that coming up on why and I would love to apologize in the coming post... And I will be posting a gift guide that I am doing this year for my family. And maybe some holiday looks with makeup and nails! Only a maybe but I will have to check my schedule.
Again, hope is well and happy with everyone. Talk with y'all very soon!

And here is a video of my best photos from 2013-2014

The Best Concert of My Life... CARNEGIE HALL!!!

heyy everyone... I am reposting this from when I posted it in 2012. This was written a year after the best band trip ever... But I have to give a shout out to the RHS Marching Band for performing at Super Bowl XVIII at MetLife Stadium. they played with Bruno Mars and many other big names... so please enjoy my account from when I was 18 years old; I was 17 when I plays, 18 when I wrote this, and 20 when I reposted this... danke!!!


I know that I am posting this a year late, but I just hit me! Last year was my senior year of high school and I got the greatest opportunity that most musicians will never get to experience!!! CARNEGIE HALL!!!!

 Roxbury was invites to preform and of course Mr. H, our conductor, said yes!! My symphony band was the first high school symphony in the state of New Jersey to play. Now that is a true honor and amazing thing. We only had a little over 2.5 months to prep for the big day, which was November 22, 2011. We played three songs: Overture on a Southern Hymm, Fire of Eternal Glory, and Pustza mvt 4.
 Roxbury is know for playing through pieces and making them sound great, and not for sight-reading. So that would give a reason as to why many didn't do well on tests. These songs were amazing and to just play was moving. Yes, Pustza is a multi movement but we only played one! We as a band worked many days and practices at home to get everything sounding right. I think that I was jipped out of a good part and the other two just joked it off. But, I went with it and did what I needed to do.

Samples, Samples, Samples?!?

Allo pals; I know it has been a long while since I last posted. Many things have been going on and I haven't had the time to write. But today on this beautiful day I thought that I would get back into talking about things that I love to shop for: hair, beauty, and other products!!!

Most of the time when you order online you get free "gifts" or samples, which is a great thing. This allows you to try a product before you think about buying it. Over the past year, I have collected and waited to try these samples. Some are free samples from making purchases online and in the stores and some from writing to the product company about products that I love and send something new to try.  I am going to link to the products as I write them and then you can decide if you want to try it out.

There are three different groups of samples: Cleansers, Face Masks, and Shampoos... I will be writing three different posts so this won't be so long and boring!

#TGIT

Allo everyone! Its Thursday and that means the weekend for most of you starts tomorrow! I am sorry that I haven't been posting much due to being busy with work, family, and playing taxi. Also I am helping my aunt plan and get ready for her Halloween party and looking for final details for my costume; if i ever decide between my two ideas!

Thought that I would give y'all an update to my happenings and hopefully get back on track with posts and everything!

By looking at the title of this post, it is a great night on ABC if you watch the line-up starting at 8pm. Grey's, Scandal, and the new Rhimes's legal drama How to Get Away With Murder. And let mt tell you, I am glad that all three shows are on one single night. This will let everyone watch the shows that they want. And watch the creative genius that Shonda Rhimes bring to television! #THIT= Thank God It's Thursday is all for one of the greatest women in television and she has accomplished all of this over the course of ten years!!! Round of applause to her y'all and on to the next topic!

Lately I have been so busy with looking for work and trying to balance work, life, and everything else that family has thrown at me! My depression is under control. I haven't been in a deep dark place since I have been on the medication. I am happier and I haven't been thinking too much about the dark place of my life. I LOVE IT!!!! Many of the people in past are staying there and I have lost some friends that might make my life healthier and happier!  Depression can lead you down a dark down whirl spiral and it is not good. It will be a dark lonely place and could lead to death. If you or someone you know needs help, please contact a mental health professional.

Other than that, I have just been relaxing when I can and sleep, eat, have fun as a single lady, and kicking ass trying to do my best at my job! Hope y'all have a great night/day and talk soon!

    Shannon   :p

New Eyeshadow That I Love!!!

Allo friends and today I thought I would share with you a new find that I am in love with!!!

One of my favourite things to do is walk around drugstores and look for new products to try or that I can't find at Harmon. So on my latest trip, I went to Kmart and buy just hair dye; but per usual I bought much more! But I am going to tell you about one product that I have fallen in love with.

If you know me, my signature colour on my lids now is Maybelline Pomegranate Punk and it looks amazing with my dark hair and light brown eyes. Also I can't really do green anymore without looking like a Christmas tree with the red hair. Back on track, I have been looking for a shadow to layer on top to keep the color in place. So, I purchases e.l.f. Long Lasting Lustrous Eyeshadow in Soiree. This is a very similar color to Pomegranate Punk and I was so happy!

When I got on I opened it and it wasn't a powder shadow. It was a whipped shadow. Something I have never tried before and it was a color I loved! So I have been wearing this on top of Maybelline masterkajal in Onyx Rush so it gives a depth on the dark side like me!

After I smudge the kajal all over the lid, I use a clean finger and apply the Soiree on top of the black leaving the outer corner blank if you would like to use a black matte shadow on the outer corner. Then I finish the rest of the look and I am done!!!

The one thing that I love about e.l.f. cosmetics is that they are inexpensive, easy on the wallet and widely available in a store near you! With makeup to tools to gifts there are many things to choose from!

I am not sponsored by any of the companies mentioned and I purchased everything with my money.

Hope you all have a great weekend and talk to you soon!
Here are the links to e.l.f. and Maybelline if you'd like to see the products that I used and the rest of what they have to offer!
e.l.f
Maybelline

Seaside Here I Come!!!

The McCloskeys are coming Seaside!!! It is another year of a watchfire! When this gets posted I will probably be working my tail off setting up and cooking all night. But on the flip side is that a nice fire will be keeping me warm until I get cozy in the hotel room to sleep. But if y'all check my Instagram and you'll see all of the beautiful photos of Seaside, my family, and everything going on!!! And I will be taking video of my weekend and hopefully post it on YouTube. Shall see everyone!

Explanation!

Allo everyone! I am going to a service to remember POWs and MIAS= Prisoners of War and Missing In Action. As part of weekend we properly retire both American and POW flags. There are services throughout the night and one of them is the meaning of the single table. Then we have another reading of the names of current POWs/MIAs. Below is a photo and the meaning of the table. I did my senior option project on the organization that I have been a part of since I was a little girl. 

•The table is set for one: symbolizes the frailty of one prisoner against their oppressor.

•Tablecloth is white: symbolic of purity of their intentions to respond their country’s call to arms.

•A single rose: Reminds us of the families 

and loved ones of our comrades who

 kept faith awaiting their return.

•A red ribbon around the vase: reminds of the red ribbon worn on the lapel and breast of thousands who bear witness to this tragedy; with unyielding determination demand a proper accounting of our missing.

•Lemon slice: bitter fate of the POWs and MIAs

•Salt on the plate:  the families tears and they wait.

•Inverted glass: cannot toast with us tonight

•Empty chair: they are not here 

We have the watch fire in Seaside Heights, NJ on the beach at the end of the boardwalk. It is held on the third weekend of September since that is POW/MIA recognition weekend.  I help out from prep, helping my da cook, keeping the fire going by retiring the flags, then crashing at midnight because I am so flamed out from the long day. Then another service at 7am to close it out until the next year.  I will be posting a blog when I come home Sunday or Monday; shall see how I feel when I am home. I can't wait to my Legion family in South Jersey and have a small break from my crazy work and daily life!!! 

Talk to y'all soon and have a fun and safe last weekend of summer!!!

   Shannon

http://www.8tfw.com/pages/powtable.htm

Boring day!

Allo friends!!! Today is a cold morning and I thought that I would give y'all a peak into my Monday! WARNING: IT IS NOTHING FUN but it is my start of the week.

Also my best friend has been staying with me and I have been taking her to and from work when I can. FYI

I am doing the time in military time because that is what comes naturally to me.

6:15: wake up. My best friend worked at 7 and it is about 10-15 minutes depending on traffic. Start the car so he can warm up and the both of us get dressed.

6:45: start the journey to work :(

7:15: came home and started to watch tv and clean up my floor- aka my bed

   I also take this time to catch up on my DVR recordings and catch up on watchin YouTube videos

9:00: Laundry time! I am seriously running out of clothes and it is getting colder plus I am going away for the weekend; and there will be a post on what I am doing since I have to explain it and it's a Legion event. Can't wait to see my friends from South Jersey! Seaside The Red Head aka my da and I are coming Saturday!

11:00: paint my nails. I bought the Sally Hansen Miracle Gel Base and Top Coat in Black-O. I have never had gel nails before so this is new for me. But the brush for the top coat was messed up so I used the one from the polish so I could do the top coat. I finished doing my nails around 11:30 and just letting them dry completely so there are no smudges.

12:20: I am making lunch, Da and I went grocery shopping and from what we bought, I am making a fish sandwich and chips aka fries!!! So excited! When it gets closer to finishing I will toast a ciabatta roll and dress the sandwich the same way  I would eat fish & chips which is just ketchup, salt, and pepper. Whilst waiting I am going to snack on a tomato and eat shortly, After, I eat I think that I will do my makeup! Maybe... shall see...  I might since I have dark nails on and going to stay in the dark theme.

14:05: folding laundry whilst watchin tv

15:15: dressed and start makeup

15:45-15:50: start driving to work

16:00-19:00: work

19:15: home from work and look for something to eat for dinner

After this, it is mostly boring unless I go out with my friends. I usually relax and watch some tv, watch movies, Netflix, or YouTube.

Hope y'all enjoyed this post and talk to you soon!!!

Youtube video!!!

Heyy everyone one! Today I was bored going through  my photos and I thought why not make a video slideshow of my photos that I thought were great and some fun!

There are some nature photos and some photos of my make-up and holiday things! I hope y'all enjoy and comment below what are your favorite photos!

Talk yo y'all soon!


2013-2014 Photos

Weekend Blues

This weekend was an interesting one at best.

Friday was filled with errands and a lost car part. I was running errands and it was going well until my temp gauge started to rise. I was on my way to get my brother and  I pulled over in Horseshoe Lake. I popped the hood and to my shock a cap was missing. The cap to my antifreeze was missing. That explained a lot. As I was about to freak out, a man and his son pulled up next to the car and asked me if I needed help. He offered to take me to the gas station and to pick up the royal pain in my ass. The both of them were very kind and helpful. Once we got back to the car, Sean and I went to Autozone to see if they had a cap; surer that sh*t they didn't have one and I couldn't call mum since she had left work. But Monday is another day to get the cap. So for now, there is tape over it so I can travel short distances. My poor poor Earl( the name of my car) is old and needs some tender loving care. But he is my rust bucket and I'll drive until I can't no more. Then, I hung out with Veronika from 7:30ish until 12:30ish. I was getting late and I needed to get some rest since I had work in the morning.

As Friday came to a close and the Saturday sun rose, per usual I didn't want to go to work. Also, not want to take Sean to work. But I did and sat in the parking lot at working until it was time to walk into work. Time goes by so slow on the weekends and to be frank, it f*&^ing s*$ks. Once work was over I came home to snack, change, and went to my aunt's house. Her car is in the shop so I drove her around so she can run errands. This is always our time to catch up and bond. While we were shopping we went to look and nail polish. Since it is football season, we were looking for a Giants blue since we love the Giants. But instead of getting blue, we got a red. Whilst looking at the polish, I found two colors that I will go back and buy. One is a pretty teal by Sally Hansen and the other by POI called 'Lincoln Park After Dark" which is a dark burgundy color. Stepping out of my comfy zone y'all.  I love my aunt so much, she is truly my other mother. After I left I had plans until my best friend's mom called me and my night changed. I went to see what was going on and wow. I am still in shock about what has happened. So instead of relaxing with my friends, I was comforting my best friend and trying calm things down.

Now on Sunday morning, we both got up since she had to work at 7 and I drove her since she doesn't have a car. Whilst she is working, I will go about my day and wait until she needs me to come get her. Hopefully things will calm down and I can drink a nice cup of tea to wind down the night but we shall see.  And I did end my night off with a cup of tea!!!

Homemade Strawberry Lemonade Pops!!! Great Way to Cool Off!

Allo and welcome back! Today I will be sharing an experiment that my friends and I came up with on a late night and it was delicious!

We were shopping at the store and I saw ice pop mold for $.99 and I was getting them. All I needed was something to fill the molds with. We originally went to the store for mac n cheese and come out with more than I really wanted to spend.

So I picked up lemonade and strawberries. The whipped was was going to go in the ice pop but I never did.

First things first, you will need:
 ice pop molds
 fresh or frozen fruit of your choice
 water, juice, or lemonade of your choice
 blender

Add in the fruit(s) and liquid(s) of your choice. I chose strawberries and lemonade since I thought that it would be delicious! But you can add whatever tickles your fancy. I would make a peach, mango, and strawberry pop! Once you blend to the consistency your happy with, pour the mixture into the molds.
To my surprise, I should have bought two molds because I made enough for two molds. Fill the molds not to the top but just enough to make a good cast. Place in the freezer for 4-8 hours or overnight. Once completely frozen, all that is left to do is take the pops out and enjoy!

The molds that I picked up have a straw built-in the base so as the pop melts, you can drink the liquid when your done or as you eat. I have to say, it was a successful late night run to the store and can't wait to do it again with other combinations! Hope y'all give these a try and post your photos! Talk to you soon!

    Shannon

Clambake 2014!!!

Hello everyone.
Recently on the 16th, the Legion post I belong to hosted a clambake ran by the SAL (Sons of the American Legion) and it was fun!!! Every year the SAL have this fundraiser to raise money to pay bills and give money to a variety of charities that all three organization within the American Legion support.

Everything starts the night before bagging clams (which I stopped doing) and more preparing the foods and other things for Saturday. On the day of, the grills are set up and the beer truck is getting ready. Tables and chairs I think are done the day before. People are allowed to put up a tent to reserve a table. And as 1pm gets close the line forms and the food is getting heated.

The doors open at 1pm and I help at the entrance with my aunt. She can't do math so I am in charge of stamping hands, giving out the door prize tickets, and proofing those who look to young to drink. Once you go past us then you can go get your food and drink and listen to the live band and have fun until 5pm. Once it is over clean up begins and it goes fast. I love it!!!

It is always fun to see my Legion family and catch up on things and just pick up where the year before ended. I don't have any photos because  I was so busy running around between the table and going to Shoprite :/   idk anymore what to say. I can't wait until 2015 clambake and I will be able to drink!!! But I wont because I am a responsible adult!!!

Have a great day and I'll talk to you soon!

   Shannon

Been Too Long!

Hey y'all...
 I am sorry for the long absence. I have been busy with work and looking for a new job. I hope all is well. My life over the past month has been boring really. I am going to post something about a clambake that I recently worked at and what other American Legion functions I will be attending.

I know that it is back to school season and I hope that everyone whether you have started already or getting ready, have a great school year and let it have many adventures and full of fun.

Weekend plans and Haul!?!

Happy Fridays ladies and gents! It is finally the weekend. some don't have to work and some of us actually have to work tomorrow :( Sad but after I get out, tomorrow night, my best friend and I are going to be having some fun of our own; and I can't tell ya what it is! After working a long day in a pediatric doctors' office has is days and I have a feeling that tomorrow might be a slow day or a very busy day!

Now, what are your weekend plans! Comment down below!

Now to the haul. There is so much that I bought today that I will write a post after the weekend and back to reality for ya. Maybe post a video? Time will tell.

Hoffnung jeder hat ein tolles Wochenende und sprechen Sie y'all sehr bald!


    Shannon

A Year Later...

So, hope everyone has been doing well. I just wanted to post this say one thing...


    I HAVE FINALLY WATCHED FROZEN and I loved it!!!

 I know I am late to the "Frozen" party but it was hard to find! and it was the most popular movie of 2013-2014 thus far. Breaking records all over the world! Top Song, album, movie, and everything else!!!

I love the story and it is another interpretation of a Hans Christian Andersen work The Snow Queen. Disney has done a great job. I LOVED IT!!!

That's all I needed to say!!!

Goodbye Motown, Hello World Cup Final!!

Today is my last few hours in Morristown with the family. We usually make breakfast and watch my uncle's shows. I like to leave when it is still daylight out. Driving down Sussex Turnpike at night scares the sh*t out of me! We all just sat and watched tv and had bagels for breakfast.
 I left around 2:15pm/14:15 to get home in time to watch the final match of the World Cup, Germany vs Argentina! The game started at 3pm and let me tell ya, what a great game. It wasn't until the extra time that the whole game changed! GOAL!!! Germany took it 1-0 and is bringing home the win, trophy, and knowing that they could never go to Argentina.
 After the game was over, it was a typical night, ate dinner, and relaxed in bed. Nothing too wild and crazy! About to go get my friend from the bus station, drop her off, then come home and go to bed. I am so tired if someone told me to lay down somewhere I would.

Night y'all

Morristown Weekend!!!

So today is Saturday! And I have started my morning with getting bagels for work and working four and a half hours of bliss! NOT!!! After work I headed straight to Motown!!! My home away from home! My parents are from Morristown and most of my mother's family is still here. Da's and some of ma's family are in either North Carolina (mom) or Florida (both).
 I go to Motown once a month to visit and see my grandfather, the patriarch of the Bason clan. He is eighty-eight years young and still kicking! I go to stay at my uncle's who conveniently lives next door. I hang with the family from Saturday afternoon until Sunday afternoon! Anything can happen when I am there. This trip is to keep our minds off of everything that has happened over the past week. Read my last post to see what I am talking about.
 My cousin Gabby and I just like hanging out and watch tv. My uncle wouldn't let us walk far places in Motown. She is like my mini-me. I taught her how to flat iron her hair, help her with her make-up, and let her play with mine since I have a vast collection. Today, I brought my collection so she can play with the colors I have and maybe teach her something new! I also bring my clothes and my laptop so I can check facebook and other things. And to, write these posts!
 Once I got to the house, little cousins attack!!! Can we do this, glad you here, SHANNNNNOOOONNNN is here everyone, etc... Big cousin Shannon, what can I say! We frosted cookies and watched movies until they had to leave. Once the craziness was calm, Gabs and I went upstairs to play with my makeup and do our hair before bed. That is what we doo!!

Night y'all stick around for part zwei!

German Nails!

Heyy y'all its Shanon and today's post is about how I did my nails to represent the German National Team in the World Cup!!! And for those who have no idea what I am talking about, FIFA World Cup comes every four years and everyone becomes a HUGE and I mean HUGE soccer fan since its your home country playing if they qualify to play. Now since I live in America and the US team got knocked out by Belgium, the Dutch and German national teams are left for me to root for. I am not Dutch in any way shape or form, but I am part German and both teams look amazing and are playing phenomenally!!!

So I could talk about the games all day but this is about the nails and here we go!

1. Apply a base coat to all of your nails, I used the Sally Hansen Diamond Base and Top Coat and let it dry
2. Paint all of your nails any color you would like or that compliments the flag. I chose to use Essie's Over the Edge". Paint two coats on all of your nails except your ring finger!
3. While your nails are drying, time to create the German flag! #GER You will need yellow, red, and black polishes. I used a yellow stripper from my friend, OPI's I'm Not Really A Waitress, and  Sinful Color's Black on Black. But you can use any yellow, red, or black to achieve this look.
4. First, I used the yellow stripper to get the yellow strip of the German flag. Keep the stripper still and roll your finger to get a straight line as you can. Then fill in under the yellow line you have just created! 
5. Then take your red polish and paint the remaining exposed nail. Two thin coats are always better than one thick coat!
6. Once the red dries, then make a band of black. Once you apply the second coat of black, let everything dry.
7. Then apply a quick drying top coat to protect your design and your done!! I used the Sally Hansen Insta-Dri Top Coat

I hope y'all enjoyed this nail art design! Please share your recreations on twitter and instagram #fifaworldcupnails on my profiles and next might be a make-up look for both the fourth of July and the USA national team. even though they are out. 

    talk to you next time!!

       -shannon!

Wild Weather and Holiday Weekend!!!

7/4/2014
Friday
Hey, y'all!!! Hope all is well, and I hope that the weather wherever you live is better than what has been going on all up and down the east coast!!! Thanks to Hurricane Arthur, its been raining since Wednesday; and making this holiday weekend start!

So today all I have done is cleaned my makeup brushes and watched movies all day.

The weather has cleared up and it is a nice sunny windy evening!!! YAY!!!

Happy 4th of July to everyone that celebrates!!! I might post a blog on a look that I created for the USAvsBEL game of FIFA World Cup. USA lost but we made it to the Round of 16 and I couldn't be any prouder of the team! And Tim Howard set the record for most saves in a game!! 16 SAVES!!! But I still have Germany and the Netherlands still in it to win it! I am part German and proud of it and the Dutch were robbed in 2010 and I would like to see them take it all the way!!!

7/5/2014
Saturday
My Saturday started off as every other weekend that I have to work. I wake up and drive to work. Work went SLOW!!! I was busy working but damn it went so slow that I wanted to go back to bed!! Once one pm rolls around, I am out of the office and go back home. I parked in the driveway and saw my parents outside all sad looking; just like the time when we found out my daddy's sister was murdered. I thought something happened to my grandfather, which is logical pick since my grandfather is 88 years old. But, I was wrong; it was my beautiful cousin Evelyn, aka Shavone. She slipped in the shower and her airway was blocked; died instantly pretty much. She leaves behind my beautiful little cousin age 7. Because she is little I am not going to provide the name. This is the third death of my family in three months. I love black but I not liking that I am going to my second funeral.
Once the shock of the death subsided for a little, the family came over for a BBQ for the 4th and my Uncle Bernard's birthday ( he was born the 4th of July.) The BBQ was a fun afternoon of laughs and picking on each other; and it was nice to keep our minds off of what had happened that morning.
After the Bason clan left, we cleaned up and relaxed; then a text message from my aunt gets me out of the house all NIGHT!!!
I go to my aunt's when ever she needs me to feed the cat and that usually means I spend the night!!! Not even two minutes in the driveway and the kids are asking me questions and attacking me with water noodles and shooters!! I get inside and feed the cat and I go next door and hang out with the neighbors and the kids. It was nice to just relax and not be home. My aunt FINALLY came home and hung out next door too. We didn't leave until midnight. I was soo damn tired that I crashed in the guest room .

7/6/2014
Sunday
We woke up and had our cups of coffee for her and tea for me. Then we went to go get an umbrella for the back deck. After we pick up we need, off to a late breakfast and it was fabulous! Went to a local place that I, wait, that we haven't been to in a long long time and it was worth it. Once we got back to my aunt's house, she kicked me out and I came home. Did a few errands like getting my eyebrows wax and buying things for my daddy.
Once I came home, that was it!!! I painted my nails for the next Germany game! Stay tuned for posts related to the FIFA World Cup!!!
Now it is getting late and time to relax and wide down for the night!!!

 Hope y'all enjoyed the beautiful holiday weekend and had a better one than I did! Like this post and leave comments below. Talk to everyone soon!!!


  -Shannon

Walmart and Harmon Haul!!!

Allo everyone. Hope everyone is doing well this fine weekend. It's Father's Day and I needed to go run some errands and and find my da gift. This haul is collective over the past few weeks since I have been busy with work!!

To start off with my favourite store Harmon:

1. Since I dye the bottom half of my hair red, I needed hair dye. I can't remember what name of the color is but  I always stick with Garnier Nutrisse Ultra Color. So I picked up R0 Darkest Intense Auburn and I hope this goes well! I love Garnier hair dye and it smells lovely!!!
2. Yet again I bought a Turbie Twist! I love the feeling this towel gives my hair. It is better than a regular bath towel and it absorbs better and ladies, that means less time with the blow-dryer!
3. I bought nail care sticks for my best friend. She loves to do nails and I was walking past them so I picked her up two packs of sticks.
4. I picked up my One a Day Women's VitaCraves Gummies since I am running low.
5. And last but not least, a new product that I purchased. I am always in the market for a cleansing wipe that also takes off makeup and makes my skin feel good at the end of the day. I use Clean & Clear products anyway so I picked up the night-relaxing all-in-one cleansing wipes. This is supposed to help you relax, cleanse your face and take off your makeup! I can't wait to see how these work and feel. Stay tuned world :)

Then I had to go to Walmart to return my blu-ray/ dvd player since it was not working correctly. So I went to return and buy a new blu-ray/ dvd player. While I was in the electronic department, I was walking down the aisle and there was the $5 movie bin!!! So I thought to get my da a dvd for Father's Day. I saw some movies that her might like, then BAM! Forrest Gump was in my sight but I didn't know if we owned it, so I called my mum-no answer; then my little brother and he said no. I added it and I went to check-out! 

So that is the haul at the moment! Hope y'all enjoy this post. Comment down below what you go your da for Father's day and have a great day and Father's Day everyone! Talk to ya soon!!!

 -Shannon :)

A Series of Posts Coming Up

Hey everyone!
I hope everyone has had a good week and getting ready for the weekend! I am in a sharing kind of mood. I know that my posts are not on schedule and I have some news to share with y'all...

I in the process of writing a series of posts regarding my inner thoughts and life. My family life. My relationships with my three closest friends and how we are doing; maybe? How I keep my friendships with girls and boys. And maybe a peak into my sex life since a very famous TV show inspired me to write it.

Also too, I am in the works on bringing a close friend who loves to do nails on board. She would post once a week with different things to do with nails. It will be coming in a few weeks when details are hashed out but I can't wait to see how everything will come together.

Can't wait to write my next post and I'll to ya soon!!!


    -shannon :P

What is Coming Up!

Hey y'all!!!

I just wanted to let everyone know that there is a change coming soon! In a post that I did in January, I did post a schedule of what would be posted. Since things have been crazy and I am off track, I am going to changes things up a bit. I won't be working on a set schedule. There is going to be a mix of my life, tags, hauls, and beauty related posts. 

You can follow me on Twitter and Instagram: @punkgurl9859

I will be posting photos on there regarding my posts too as well as photos from my life!

Also, please comment and leave requests, like posts, videos; hoping to help others all over!

What's in My Bag!!!

Heyy y'all.. I hope all is well and dandy. Today i am going to let you guys have a look at what is in my bag!!! This could be a scary thing to see... My friends and family call it a mini Walmart and my portable briefcase! So everybody lets get started!!!

So to start with my bag varies on my mood and how much I need to carry at any given moment!!! But my bag of choice is this black bag from Airwalk that I bought at Payless on Bogo Sale for $10!!! I bought this bag I think two years ago, I think. That was a steal compared to the shoes that I bought day! It is roomy and gets a lot of the basics that I carry around for daily life. The strap can be adjusted to any length that you need to your comfort needs.



No looking at the photo to the left and you might think, "Is that bag heavy"? And the answer to your question- NO!!!
Surprisingly it is light and doesn't hurt my shoulder.

I keep my basics in the center part of the bag and my pens and gum in the zipper pouch on the front of the bag. Looking at the photo above, you can see my collection of pens. I also have two kinds of gum on my person at all times. And I have the EOS balm in Sweet Mint.
In the red tin, I keep some alcohol pads I took from my job and a pack of Listerine Breath strips.

Looking in the center part of the bag, I always have a book on hand so I can read wherever I am. I usually keep a history book in my bag; anything from ancient Greece to mobsters of the 1930s, I am reading it. Next I keep travel sizes of my body spray, lotion, and deodorant. From prior posts I use Bath and Body Works "Country Chic" scent for my body spray and lotions. I use Dove deodorant. I also keep a pocket tissue in  my bag for touch-ups or to blow my nose. I just started to keep body wipes for cooling and removing sweat. These body cleansing wipes really came in handy when I was walking to and from work. The basics like my wallet, my car keys, sunglasses, and a travel pouch filled with other little key items. In the pouch is Summer's Eve Wipes, Listerine Breath Strips, travel mouthwash, travel toothpaste, Wisps, hair ties, and bobby pins!!! Sometimes I'll add in the travel toothbrush if I am going somewhere for a few days, if it is an overnight trip, I just use a Wisp and clean my teeth then use mouthwash.

That is what is in my bag. I do change out my bags when I am in the mood. I did buy everything with my own money and nothing was given by the companies.

Hope y'all enjoyed and I'll talk to ya soon!!!
    -Shannon

Harmon's Haul and I Got My Car BACK!!!

     I posted photos on my Instagram of what my car looks like both before and after! Hope y'all enjoy this post!

     So Sunday May 18th was a normal day of walking. Also, I had an appointment to get my eyebrows waxed at 2:15pm. My daddy took the car to fix it and get it drivable again! By the time I needed to leave to walk, daddy wasn't back yet and I started walking. I had been walking everyday for two weeks because I never had a ride and some days were beautiful to walk.

    So I packed up my bag and I began walking down the the European Wax Center on Route 10. Thank you to the weather gods that it was a clear beautiful day for walking. I got to the EWC early because it took less time to walk there. I walked in and everyone that works the front desk knows my name; I don't even have to say my name and time anymore. Morgan is the brow wizard and gets my brows in shape. She knows how to get them in order and shaped right. Once the appointment was over, I walked next door to Panera. I usually order a basic salad and a smoothie, but I was in the mood to try something new. So  I ordered the strawberry poppyseed chicken salad and a strawberry smoothie. And I highly recommend this salad to everyone!!! It was sooo yummy and I have no words to describe!

    I am sitting down, eating my salad, reading my book, and relaxing before I was going to walk back home; then I get a text message from my mom. It said, "Earl can come pick you up." and I was so happy behind my book. I said "yes" and she replied back "Are you done?", and I was quick to say yes! I finished eating my salad and went outside to wait for my beast to arrive! Once daddy came to pick me up, we went back home and I went for a drive to Harmon's and the bank for the first time in weeks!!!

    At Harmon's I had to buy my body scrub that I am in love. I am talking about "Tree Hut Shea Sugar Body Scrub in Coconut Lime. I use it before I shave and my legs are super soft after I am out of the shower. I also bought a loofah body buff, an exfoliating facial sponge, soft netting bath sponge, and a shower cap. Basic shower things and I was happy to spent my money in Harmon's and driving again!!!

   Enjoy everyone and I'll talk to  ya next time!
       -shannon :)

Walgreen's Haul!!!

Heyy y'all.. I hope everyone is enjoying this warm sunny beautiful day. Since I still don't have a car, I am walking to and from many places like work and close stores. I know, walking is good for you but I have been running around like a mad woman between working and writing; I am bloody tired and pooped.

But, I realized that I was running low or I was completely out of some things. So I walked to my local Walgreen's and picked up some things; both beauty and non-beauty related items!!!

1. Garnier Fructis Style Flexible Control Anti-Humidity Hairspray: I love this line of hairsprays. There are different formulations for different styles. I have the Sleek & Shine Hairspray  and loved it. But I am branching out and trying the lower level of hold for more of an everyday use to lock in my style. Let's see how the anti-humidity works in the upcoming summer heat!
2. Pantene Pro-V Ultimate 10 BB Creme: This is a repurchased item. And let me tell you I LOVE THIS PRODUCT!!! The things that this product promises are amazing and TRUE!!! I can't stop using this. I use it as part of my everyday product routine!!!
3. Garnier Fructis Marvelous Oil Deep Nourish- Dry, Damaged Hair: I have the two other oils for unruly frizzy hair and color treated hair so I saw this and thought to add it into the mix. I love the other two oils since I do have frizzy unruly hair and my hair is color treated! Now that it is summer time, my hair gets dry from using heat tools which leads to damage. 
4. Vaseline lip therapy in cocoa butter: I have heard good things about the lip therapy products. I was going to buy the one that makes your lips have a rose tint to them. But, I prefer to keep them how they look and 
5. Sally Hansen Ouch-Relief Wax Strip Kit: I have seen this product a lot on many of the You-tubers that I follow and that made me want to try it. I know that waxing hurts like a mother fucker but I have tried so many hair removal things in the past. I have thick hair and for me it is hard to find something that will work. Being that this have pain relief technology, this should help reduce the pain of waxing. 
6. Skintimate Skin Therapy Moisturizing Shave Cream: I LOVE THIS!!! I have been a loyal customer with this shave cream. This comes in a purple can and is best used with the Schick Hydrosilk razor. I love both this shave cream and razor. Keeps my legs smooth and hydrated then I use the Aveeno Daily Moisture Body Lotion with SPF and amazing things happen. 

Among the beauty things that I bought, I was out of junk food and drink. 

You can ask everyone and say that I love Sour Cream and Onion flavored Lays chips and Pringles. So I had to restock on those. The Pringles where 3/$5 and the chips were regular priced. I also have a sore spot for Arizona Sweet Tea in the tall $0.99 cent cans. I bought two so that way I don't drink them all. Drinking those is a sad sad addiction. And last but not least I purchased the Aquafina flavor splash in So straw-berry: At our new apartment, they landlord puts water softener in the water and to be frank, the water tastes like SHIT!! There is a weird salty flavor and I just don't like it. We even have one of those water purifiers on the faucet so it doesn't taste so bad but is still tastes like fucking SHIT! Coming from well water that didn't have any additives, I needed something to add taste to the water. So the last time I went to Walgreen's, I bought it and loved it. So on this trip, I bought two of them so I didn't run out of it and I can drink the water. With the water tasting like shit, I was drinking da's water and iced tea he has in the spare fridge to take to work. 

So there ya have ladies and gents, that is what my purchases were and it all came to less than $60!!! I purchased all of these products with my own money and wasn't sponsored in any way shape of form!! 

Hope y'all enjoyed this and chat with y'all soon!!! 

  love

      -shay! (shannon :))

its bloody Sunday!!! and Mother's Day

happy mother's day to all the mums in the states and wherever else they celebrate.

today would be a good day in my house but you can cut the tension with a fucking knife.
everyone is getting on each others toes and butting heads.

on top of that I am so fucking depressed that I barely have left my rooms. random fits of crying and feeling like i am on fire.

this is short and simply. happy mum's day and enjoy to every mum out there


 night

 -shannon :(

boring weekend...

there is really nothing new that happened this weekend. I am writing a series of posts that will happen over a week or two; all depends on how I feel. I also am going to make a change into the content of this blog.

I will have beauty blogs coming soo and more hauls when there is more money in my pocket to do more things. I have something good in the works and I am not going to be a shy girl anymore. I am a young woman with a voice. I am called the "Dr. Phil" of my small group of friends as you will soon find out and I am going to share my life. Friendships, relationships, money issues, and more!!



   thanks y'all!

My First Tag!!!!

Heyy y’all… this tag going around on youtube and since I don’t make videos, I will make it into a blog post. I liked the question and figured you know that, I am going to do it!!! Read below!!!

First tag questions

The Questions:
1) What was your first tweet? Dec 9, 2012: “#NCIS is amazing and watch it every chance I get! And the crew makes ir even better! #NCISSuperfan”
2) What was your first YouTube video? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_6-DLj4u7Jo
3) Who was the first blog you subscribed to? Julia Graf
4) What was your first facebook profile picture? A picture of me and my best friend from when we were in middle school in a Halloween costume.
5) Do you still talk to your first love? depends
6) What was your first alcoholic drink? Jack and ginger
7) What was your first job? My current job as a secretary at a pediatrics office
8) What was your first car? Oldsmobile Cutlass Ciera
9)Who was the first person who text you today? My Aunt Wandalee!!! I love this woman soo much. She is like another mother to me. I go to her if I need to chat and get away from everything.
10) Who was the first person you thought of this morning? My two aunts. Rest In Peace Aunt Annie and Aunt Gail…  I love you both soo much and think about you everyday.
11) Who was your first grade teacher?  Mrs. Latella
12) Where did you go on your first ride in a an aeroplane? Florida when I was a year old to see my family after my brother was born. So around Christmas 1995
13) Who was your first best friend and do you still talk? Tiara and yes we do.
14) Where was your first sleepover? Again that title belongs to Tiara
15) What was the first thing you did this morning? I went to the bathroom not to be gross.
16) What was the first concert you went to? Nickelback’s All the Right Reasons Tour in 2007
17) What was your first broken bone? I have never broken a bone J
18) What was your first piercing? My ears when I was a baby!
19) What was the first foreign country you went to? I have never left the US, not even the east coast L
20)What was the first movie you remember seeing? Mhmmm that is many but I remember seeing Catch That Kid
21) When was your first detention? Does lunch detention count?!?
22) Who was your first roomate? I still live with my parents but my bestie Veronika crashes at my place every week and she lived with us for a month or two!
23)What was the first sport you were involved in? Martial Arts. I did it for 6 years and received my first degree black belt!!! Btw, I was the only girl in my testing!!! J
24) What is the first thing you do when you get home? Not to be gross, but wither use the bathroom or go to my room and put my things down to go use the bathroom
25) When was your first kiss? 5^th grade, hehe

So that was my firsts tag blog… I tag everyone that reads this to post your answers!!! Write it make a video on youtube!!! 

love y’all

-shannon J

Movie: Review Wednesday!

Hallo an alle . Heute ist Mittwoch und das bedeutet, es ist Tag schreiben . Jetzt bin ich in der Liebe mit Edgar Allan Poe. Er war ein großer Schriftsteller , die missverstanden wurde und sein Ruhm stieg nach seinem plötzlichen , frühen Tod im Jahre 1849 . Es ist ein Film aus dem Titel , The Raven , mit John Cusack in der Hauptrolle von Poe.

Dieser Film folgt Poe im letzten Jahr seines Lebens. Dabei gibt es ein Killer auf dem losen unter Poes Geschichten und macht sie zum Leben erweckt.

Nun, wenn Sie eine von Poes Werk gelesen haben, wissen wir alle, dass es dunkel , grauenhaft, blutig, und verdreht ist . Viele Papiere nicht die Gedichte und Geschichten zu veröffentlichen. Poe nie wirklich Geld entweder machte sich von ihnen. Er würde sein Geld für Alkohol und andere Dinge ausgeben .

Dieser Film hat zwar die Fakten von Poes tatsächlich Leben und die Geschichten zum Leben auf dem Bildschirm. Das Erzählen der Geschichten über die Verbrechen sind ganz in der Nähe der zu lesen.
Das einzige, was ich nicht wirklich glücklich war , war der Endung. Wenn Sie ein Poe -Fan sind , werden Sie wissen, was ich rede , wenn Sie diesen Film sehen!

Wenn Sie den Film nicht sehen , ist es völlig in Ordnung , und ich empfehle ich einige seiner berühmtesten Werke wie : The Raven, The Pit and the Pendulum , Annabelle Lee, The Cask of Amontillado , Der Untergang des Hauses Usher und The Tell- Tale Heart , um nur einige zu nennen! Ich habe eine Kopie von Poes Gesamtwerk .

Holen Sie sich die Bücher y'all und den Film , wenn Sie möchten .
hoffe, ihr wird die Zeit nehmen, um die Werke eines großen amerikanischen Schriftsteller, der unter aussah, war zu lesen; und ist endlich die Kredit er verdient.

schreiben Sie, was Sie über das funktioniert, oder dem Film denken!

Liebe euch alle und haben einen guten Tag oder Nacht, wo immer Sie sind!

-shannon

my poor poor Earl

for all, today was my aunt's funeral and I thank everyone that came. My aunt fought a long fight and isn't suffering anymore. I know that she is in a better place and with my grandmother and her grandson, my little cousin, that I never met. It was interesting to experience a Muslim service. It was nice to see my southern family and family I don't see on a regular basis. Didn't want to under the circumstances we were dealt as a family.

On the way to the repass, we got into a car accident!!! My poor poor Earl. Earl is the name of my da's car that I just drive all the time to get to and from work. And run errands, and play taxi to my family. My friends named the Oldsmobile when they were really really tired and came up with an elder gentlemen's name.

We were driving, da was looking. The car in front of us was making a turn, stopped and bam!!!

Have to wait for the for the insurance company to come and look.. I have a feeling it is going to be totaled and I am out of a car. I really don't want a stationwagon for a car!I love my Olds and so do my friends!!! I will give an update to see how it goes.
 I don't to lose Earl.
here are some other photos of my baby

Walmart/ Bath & Body Works Haul!

so I have a sad addiction when it comes to Walmart. I go there for everything but make-up since I go to Harmon's. from clothes to supplies for my desk, I buy things there and plus it is close. I went to Walmart twice yesterday; once for me and once with my fun Aunt Wandalee.
the trip for me was things that I needed

Walmart!!! (first trip)

1. socks: all of my sock are ripped, have holes, and are dirty from the move. so I through out all of my socks. I like no show socks, dont ask me why but I do. I prefer Hanes. I have to look for the larger size since I have a big foot size. 
2. panties: I am a huge Faded Glory junkie. from my tank tops, jeans, dresses, you name it I love the brand. so I wear boyshort cut panties and always am looking for new colors and patterns.
3. Command hooks: I like the Command products. they leave no residue behind. they are easy to use. I bought the hooks so I can hang up my purse, jacket, hoodie(s). I also got the medium length mounting strips so I can hang up my whiteboards!!!!
4. ear buds: I always go through ear buds. now they have a mic built-in and I like it. my old ones we starting to fall apart and the cushion started to crack and split. 
5. hair ties: I always loose my hair ties and the cat loves to play with them. so I bought the 70 count box so I can have them.
6. deodorant: Dove go fresh: revive- pomegranate and lemon smelling and I love it. it goes well with the body spray I use. 

I go to Bath & Body Works to get my body spray.  I love the signature scent "Country Chic". I bought the fine fragrance mist (the bigger bottle, not the perfume). as always when I go into the store, the travel products are on say "Buy 3 for $10" and I grabbed three fragrance mist bottles (the smaller bottle). those are good to keep in your purse or in the car; an overnight bag. I like to use them when the bigger bottle runs out.  

this is what i bought and share what you love to get from bath & body works below and chat with y'all soon!

 bye  -shannon

sad news...

This week has been a rough week...

everyone knows that we moved from a house to a small apartment for the next year or soo.... still unpacking :( I mean I like my room its is in the back so I don't have to hear my da wake up my brother in the morning.

my weekend started like shit from the move; then it went over the edge when I found you that my da's oldest sister, Ann Marie, aka Aunt Annie, was murdered by her SOB of a boyfriend. She was "brutally" murdered. The SOB slit her throat and stabbed my Aunt. She had Multiple Sclerosis which is an autoimmune disease that affects the brain and spinal cord. She was diagnoses when she was a child. He probably killed her either Sunday night or early Monday morning. Then he had the nerve to stay and wash his clothes on Wednesday. My aunt's body was discovered Thursday night and the family was all notified that night and on Friday morning. I have been reading the newspaper articles watching the updates to see what is happening. My aunt was a fun, free spirited woman who took her dx in stride and knew her family. When she started dating Tom (the SOB's name), she became distant from the family that is right in Florida like she was. I live in New Jersey, the last time I saw my aunt was the year her husband, my Uncle Danny, passed away in 2010; and she was walking then too... At the time of the murder, my aunt was either in a wheelchair or a walker from the MS and probably could not fight back. Tom made her have weekly yard sales every weekend for the past four months to make money. She made her get ride of my aunt's dogs. Now,  I am an animal lover, but my aunt LOVED her dogs. She volunteered every week at a local shelter in Daytona. HE stole my grandmother's crystal and my aunt's money. Now to the fun part of this story. He fled on Friday and his sister was the one that told the police where to find him. He would either run to the Keys or to the Everglades. {side note: if you ever go to Florida, go to these places. I have been to the Glades and I love it!!! and I have heard soo much about to the Keys- I would love to go!} He too stole my aunt's car, which also tipped off his sister.  Now mind you, this all happened on Friday.

Now, Saturday morning started off like every other one. I wake up and relax to get ready to go to work. Then, I hear my mum crying. I thought that she was still crying about my Aunt Annie. Then my da comes into my room and tell me that my Aunt Gail had passed away around 7am that morning. Now, both of my parents have lost an older sister in a matter of a few days. My Aunt Gail was fighting against cancer and lost. She was a fighter. I remember the last time I saw her, she always says "toodles" when we say goodbye. I will miss that. My aunt was in and out of hospitals over the past year fighting. I haven't seen her in the hospital. I can't visit anyone unless they are in labor because I know that they are going to live. Every time I go to see someone, they come out in a body bag. My Aunt loved to chat, I call it the Bason Curse; among other thing that could qualify in that category. Aunt Gail moved back up here from Florida when my grandmother was sick and dying in 2007. My grandmother passed away in December 2008 and she stayed up here. Her husband, Raymond lived up here too. So I would see them every month when I went to Morristown. about 5 months ago, I would see them then that all stopped. My aunt was getting worse was transferred between hospitals here in Northern New Jersey. We all knew that she wasn't going to make it the rest of the year. My Aunt Cindi is a nurse and I would ask how Aunt Gail was going and her outlook was grim. I

Today is Sunday and I am remembering my aunts as the smart, funny, strong, witty women they were. Our families are making plans for services soon and my da is going to go be with his family in Florida and I would like to go with him and Sean can stay here with mum. Then today around 14:15( 2:15pm) my dear cousin Patrick sent me a text telling me that the SOB that killed our Aunt Annie was found DEAD in the Keys. My da told me a few minuted earlier but having that confirmation that Tom was dead made me happy. But as a family, we will never have the answers we want: why? how? motive? Now, we don't have to go through that pain of a trial and to him sit there with a smirk on his face and to actually hear why and the motive. Now the police can look for more evidence as to why he would hurt such a kind woman.

No matter watch service I attend, there are two women that are kind and special too me and I will see them one day again in Heaven. They are seeing old relatives that left this Earth that meant something to them. They are with there parent(s) again, aunts, uncles, cousins, grandchild (Aunt Gail). I know that they are not suffering anymore and I'd rather them be in no pain then living in pain on Earth.

Aunt Annie was violently taken from us and Aunt Gail's fought until her last breath. I love and will miss my aunts everyday until I see them again. I won't be joining them for a long long time; but I will be looking for signs to let me know that they are looking out for me like my grandparents up above. My family has endured more pain and I just added two more people to the long list of relatives that I have lost during my twenty years of living.

I just would like to thank all of my friends for their condolences, love, and prayers going to my family. Both sides of my family have lost someone but they all knew each other growing up in the same town as kids.
RIP Aunt Annie and Aunt Gail.

moving day 4

so today is Tuesday and it has been four days since I have moved into my new place with the family. it is really small and I will try to post everyday or so with how the move is and my unpacking.

I am sooo stressed that I breaking out and that I haven't straightened my hair in days. I have to drive to work now and that is no fun... I can not take this stress and having to clean two houses and still move things into storage...

my only saving grace is that I now have a tv in my room so I can watch some tube!

I will be putting more posted up soon with moving updates, hair, makeup, and I night start doing #OOTD; on may never know....


 hope y'all have a great day or night and talk to you soon. please comment below on what you'd like me to write about or a look that I could try to recreate.

   -shannon

hate being sick

I really don't like being sick at all... my temp keeps changing and I feel nauseous all the time. singing even feels weird and the nauseous feeling is still lingering. I don't even know what this could be. help!!! you would think that working in a pediatric doctors office, you could get things to help prevent an illness; WRONG!!! the one girl that works with me gets sick all the time. during the winter, no patients came in and now all of the sudden, the phones are ringing to make appointments because their children are sick. sore throats, swollen nodes, runny noses, coughs, wheezing... strep and the flu is coming around.

Lá Shona Fhéile Pádraig

Lá Shona Fhéile Pádraig!!!
March 17th brings a smile to this face of mine. I am proud to be represent all of the nationalities that I am but St. Paddy's holds a special place in my heart.
Being a girl that was raised in a multi-racial family, I am on the light skinned side being that my father is white and my mother is black. Growing up in the NY tri-state, I have seen many things. But on holiday out of the year has always been my favourite besides my birthday(even though I bitch about my birthday every year. next year is the big 2-1).  I get to learn many new things about the Irish and be proud of the rich history.

My Paddy's Day was fun with work and singin' and dancin' to Irish tunes. I did go to a parade over the weekend. A post with all the details recounting my weekend will come soon.

But I wanted to post this to wish everyone a happy and safe St. Paddy's and enjoy!!!

http://www.history.com/topics/st-patricks-day/history-of-st-patricks-day/videos/bet-you-didnt-know-st-patricks-day
http://www.history.com/search?q=st.%20patrick%27s%20day

Lá Fhéile Pádraig is close!!!

St. Paddy's Day is fast approaching and I can not wait!!!! I love going to the parade in Morristown and being with my family in town. So the day before the parade I am going to give you a run down of what the plans are for hair, make-up, outfit, and the the day... On Monday, actually St. Paddy's day I will post a detailed post of photos and the day. I will also provide links to articles to read up on one of my favourite holiday..

The general outline of the hair is wavy so I curled my hair last night. Will do a little retouching if need be on parade day.
Make-up: either a nude lid with black liner and mascara or green shadow with black liner and mascara
Clothes: sneakers, blue jeans, shamrock tank top, black sweater, and a jacket  for the weather
Accessories: bead, beads, beads, whatever I buy or get on parade day!!! and I have a tiara that says "Irish Princess" that I am so wearing!!! will post a photo with the whole look either on Sunday or Monday.

green nails on a Saturday night!

Sorry for the late post!! I wrote this Saturday night on the Blogger app and it was never posted!!! this was a sister bonding night and the first day of March!!! so Enjoy!
after work today I went out with my sister to get our nails done! so I ventured off of my usual black matte! I am liking the nails. can't wait to see how long it will last.

yet again, another snow storm!

this weekend will be spent on getting junk food and waiting for the storm Titan to come and bury the east coast again. CVS and I are well acquainted with each other. The storm is coming on Monday :(

so Saturday is work and maybe some fun after the fact. Sunday starts the storm and continues into Monday. Thank you to the heavens I have a new laptop. This will help occupy the time I will be just watchin' movies and things.

I bought my junk food today at CVS after hanging with one of my best friends. Now I am home posting this late on the first day of March before I go to bed since I have work in the A.M.

now all I have to do is work and relax this weekend as it will snow. I will take that time to catch up on some laundry, watch some records on the DVR, and clean a little more..

hope y'all have a great weekend and I will talk with everyone on Monday!! Give you updates on the snowy condition, please follow my Instagram or Twitter, @punkgurl9859 for both!!!


thanks and please enjoy!!! leave comments on any post. I'd love to talk with everyone.

   good night
  -shannon :)

Ich mag, was zu tun, um nicht so deprimiert sein

in meinem früheren Beitrag habe ich über die niedergedrückt. eine detailliertere Post ist in den Werken bald, aber das ist über das, was Ich mag an meinem Verstand von den dunklen Dinge in meinem Kopf zu bewahren.

1. Ich singe zusammen mit einigen Wiedergabelisten auf meinem iPod. Es ist mir egal, die um ist. Ich habe sogar eine Playlist, um zu tanzen, wie ich bin Teil einer Band und reisen um die Welt auf Tour. 
2. Celtic Woman Singen macht mich das Gefühl, ich bin in Irland. Ich fühle mich wie ich bin in Erie und leben in Europa. Ein Tag, der kommen wird wahr. 
3. Beobachten Komödien, entweder TV-Shows oder Filme. Steckt mich immer in eine bessere Stimmung. 
4. Schreiben Sie, wie ich fühle üblichen hilft. 
5. Schreien Sie es heraus. 
6. Ein Nickerchen oder schlafen sie ab. 

dies ist ein kurzer Beitrag und was ich tun, um ein wenig besser fühlen. hoffe, dass dies hilft, einige Leute.

Sie sprechen y'all soon!

  -shannon

here is the English translation of the post:
in my prior post, I talked about being depressed. a more detailed post is in the works soon; but this is about what I like to to keep my mind off of the dark things in my head.

1. I sing along with some playlists on my iPod. I don't care who is around. I even have a playlist to dance to like I am part of a band and travel the world on tour.
2. Singing Celtic Woman makes me feel like I am in Ireland. I feel like I am in Erie and live in Europe. One day that will come true. 
3. Watching comedies, either TV shows or movies. Always puts me in a better mood. 
4. Writing out how I feel usual helps.
5. Crying it out.
6. Taking a nap or sleeping it off.

this is a short post and what I do to feel a little better. hope that this helps some people.

talk you y'all soon!

 -shannon

depressed on a Sunday night

so this is a casual post...


i am in the process of making dinner and all i do is ask one simple question and my mom makes some remarks that i know are meant for me.... why is it that my parents look at my brother as the golden boy and i am the ugly step child. i do my best things at night. so why question me...

up until tonight, my weekend was going good... work was busy, i had some really good fun with my friends... what more could i ask for... right?!?

usually at work, things are slow during the season, (which is strange because that year during this time, it was busy) it was a busy day. then i went out and had some fun before i went to my bestie's house. then i spent the rest of Saturday with Tiara and doing fun things and making up for not chilling on our appointed Friday hangout session.

Sunday is usually a lazy clean day. no grocery shopping was amazing. I was able to sleep in. the day was going good until the parent fuck you and clean. i am calmed down to a degree and eating my salad for dinner. I hope the rest of the week goes so much better.

i get depressed and feel alone at the drop of a hat. it gets in the way of me wanting to be fun and go out. i feel that no one will date me because i am not the thinnest thing ever. my friends have to drag me out of the house to go out and to do things. i hate living like this and i wanna change. but old habits die hard.

i wish that the guy for me just comes and takes me away and i never  have to look at Roxbury again. i just wanna pick up and leave the past at the door and start to write a new chapter. everyday i feel like Monica from the classic 90's tv show Friends, i am the ugly girl that no one talks to. reliving high school all over again. i am too fat for anyone and everyone looks at you like ohhh she is ugly, fat. no one will ever date here. her younger brother is cooler and more fun to be with. my parents even like the brat more.

just writing this makes me cry. my little brother is doing better then me? :( it makes me curl in a ball and never wanna leave me room. i challenge anyone break down the wall and help me through the tough times and be there. i hide my hurt well, so have fun breaking my shell.

-shannon

Again, Harmons!!!

Well, once again I was at Harmon's to get some products that I regularly use and some that I saw and just wanted to try. This was a regular bi-weekly or every three week trip.

So I bought the usual lotion and moisturizer for both morning and night, a facial mask, cleansing pads for the Wave, nail clippers, a combs and brushes to blowout my hair.

Some new things I purchased that I am looking forward to trying:

1. Tree Hut Shea Sugar Body Scrub in Coconut Lime-  The smell is amazing and there are different scents to pick from. This is an exfoliating body scrub... Can't wait to see what this product can do.
2. L'Oreal Sleek It Iron Heat Spray- I was the advertising for this and a Youtuber I follow (Kayley Melissa) talk about this. I have used many heat protection products and I am looking froward to seeing how this works. I have different heat protection products for blowdrying and for using the flat iron. This says that it will stay straight for three days. Can't wait to see how this will work with my curly hair. 

So,  I post some blogs with the theme of Getting Ready With Me for different things. Different hair styles and makeup look... Also blog posts about the day and things like that...

hope y'all enjoy and talk to y'all soon
 -shannon :)

Haul!!! Harmon's is my drug!!!

Heyy everyone. So I am sitting here in cold NJ on a rainy day. I thought I'd share what I did thus far before I go on with my night and thought I'd share with you what I purchased and I will write a review for the products mentioned in today's post in a few weeks.. Prices may vary from store to store due to sales or coupons. Depending on where you live, you can go buy in another drug store. I personally shop at Harmon's. This is from my purchase on Wednesday 2/19.

1. Maybelline Dream Fresh BB Cream- I love this product. I wear this instead of foundation. This is always a re purchased product every time.  I wear the medium sheer tint. I may look like a light shade but the light medium shade doesn't match my skin tone. This has SPF 30 so this great for younger skin to protect the skin. 
2. Kit-Kat Minis- This is my late night sweet snack. I have found that I can buy then a little cheaper at Harmon's compared to CVS or Walmart. Freeze them and chop them and put on ice cream or just pop them in your mouth.. I love them!!!
3. e.l.f. Translucent Matifying Powder- I was this and I wanted to try it. This is supposed to be used as a setting powder. 
4. Turbie Twist Hair Towel- I have the Turbie Towel and it is absorbent. With the twist and loop design, it should be easier to dry your hair; this claims that you don't have to blowdry as long.
5. Tresemme 24hr Body Blow Dry Lotion- I love Tresemme products. So I am always looking for a new product blow out my curly hair. So I am looking forward trying this product.
6. Tresemme Platinum Strength Heat Protection Spray-  This is supposed to help repair 2yrs worth damage to your hair. I have used it in the past. I am currently using the deep conditioner too and I am loving it.
7. Garnier Fructis Damage Eraser Strength Reconstruction Butter- This is from the Damage Eraser collection. I can't wait to use this hair butter. This claims to strengthen and repair your hair.
8. Herbal Essences Moroccan Me a Miracle 7in1 Serum with Argan Oil- Argan Oil is really good for the hair. It helps your hair look healthy and shine for days. This is a 7in1 and I can't wait to try this product.

This is not a sponsored post of any kind. I just bought these with my own money. I use them to see what I like to use for my curly hair to help keep it straight. In a few weeks I will write about the products from this and another purchase from Harmon's. 

hope y'all enjoy and talk to ya soon!!!

 -shannon :) 

Urban Decay Smoked Palette- Nautral Look

For this post, I am talking about Urban Decay's Smoked Palette... I purchased this palette a few months ago at Ulta for $50 and I love it!! There are ten shadows, an eyeliner, and a look book.. The shadow names are interesting and funky like "Evidence" and "Loaded"; which are a pigmented deep blue and green.Kinky and Freestyle are good as a base and highlight colour.

You could really use your imagination with all the color provided. You should be careful of the fall out. I would say that if you are new at using black to start with a little and work your way. Blackout is a good shadow to set eyeliners and for a smokey eye look. The eyeliner is the 24/7 glide-on eye pencil in Perversion. This pencil glides on with ease and come in a variety of colors. If you want to see what else Urban Decay has to offer, go to: www.urbandecay.com

I always start off with a clean face. Then I prime my eye with the primer that comes with the palette. A pea sized amount is good for both eyes. Then I set the primer with a mix of Kinky and Freestyle. With a shadow brush or a clean finger, apply Barlust evenly on the lid. Blend with either base color in the crease. Apply the shadow as many times needed. The more you layer, the longer it stays. On a angled liner brush or a stiff smudge brush, apply Barlust on the lower lashline, clean the brush and apply a matte brown to line; in the palette you can use Backdoor. You can substitute all of these products.

I know that in this photo is hard to see but I am wearing "Barlust" and the brown-bronze makes my brown eyes stand out. I always wear bottom liner and set it with a the same shadow.

If you wanna take this into a night time look, use Perversion eye liner to tightline the upper and lower lines, I personally just do the bottom lid due to my eye shapes but do what ever works for you. Use the Blackout shadow to set the bottom waterline.

Take this time before doing back out to touch up and thing, so add another coat or two of mascara, add some lip gloss, touch up the brows and face; out to dinner with the girls, you date night, what ever you may be doing.

Can't wait to post more reviews and photos!
-Shannon