Is It To Hard To Ask? #DepressionChats

Today is the last day of 2014 and once again, I can't sleep.. Maybe because I have too much on my mind. Thinking about how things have gone over the past year and how lonely my life is. That is probably mostly my doing and now I hate it. I am so wrapped up in my little cocoon of solitude and comfort because that is all I know. I have come across people that make me happy and those that have brought me down to a level that was hard to travel back to the happy place. I have gone through so many family tragedies and issue at home that the life I want is hindered. Playing a mom since you were so young is never fun and for those who understand, you know what I mean. It is hard for me to have relationships with people since I have such a wall built that is so strong so the true me wont shine through.